I'm Counting On Y'all...

P is 1/2way across the country, and I'm starting to really freak about H's surgery...

The good news? It's at 7am. The bad news? We have to be there at 6.

We had the pre-op physical today...amazingly, she didn't vomit, though she came close. She had a fever last weekend, doc thinks it might be from another ear infection brewing.

The good news? This has confirmed to me that I shouldn't chicken out of putting H under the knife. The bad news? Any fever, and they pull her from surgery, and we have to wait about a month, with the holiday and all. The good/bad news? I picked up ANOTHER perscription for ANOTHER antibiotic this afternoon...(that's 5 rounds of 4 different meds in the last few months)...

I laid in bed till after midnight rolling the whole "what if's" thru my head. She went down like a rock...too bad I didn't.

I'm tired, and stressed, and can't stand the idea of one more earache/teething pain fueled-whine fest tomorrow. I'm sooooo tired. I know P isn't home till dinner time when he's here, but this is so much harder with no break. And work has things that need to be done too...

I'm dreading Friday like you wouldn't believe, and I also can't wait for it to come...at least P will be home tomorrow night...late, but at least he'll be home. I just want it to be over.

Thank you for listening to my own whine-fest. Thank you for your consideration...

Why I Work at (Small) Happy Workland

P left his old job at the used-to-be-technology-leader back at the very tail of June. He started his new job at safety-technology-company in August. It's now November.

We got on Saturday ANOTHER mailer from UTBTL company for HR benefits stuff. Not the "you still might have your now-puny 401k with us" kinda statements stuff, which I would understand. No, we get things about re-enrollment for 2009. We get things about anti-smoking programs. We get things about how to earn more points at the gym.

Har!

Seriously? They've laid off over 30% of their world wide staff. That alone, the money in mailers could probably bail their sorry asses out of the pits. No one has noticed that these people aren't in their employ anymore?

I will never ever work for such a large company. The beaurocratic stupidity is mind-numbing.

I told P, my guess is, we won't stop getting mailers until they spin out their one profitable division to live on it's own, and the rest of the parent dies a long, CEO-benefiting death.

One Last Political Post...

Anything to keep my mind off the little girl with the big fever sleeping upstairs in her crib...

Things I would like to see change in our political world:
1. The electoral college: It's an outmoded concept. Computers folks...we can count all the votes now.

2. Winner-Take-All-States: Obama won by approx. 10% over McCain. Why did he have over a hundred more electoral college votes? Winner takes all states...again, we can count on more than our fingers and toes now with them new-fangled computer-thingys...We can't handle splitting 50 states' votes, if we have to keep the EC?

3a. Reporting. Seriously. I was screaming at the TV using nasty words in front of my daughter. How the hell can you call Kentucky with 8% of the vote in? I mean, yes, we all "knew" that it would go Rep., but from a mathmatical standpoint, it's not a viable call! And how the hell did they call Vermont (Or was it NH?) with literally "0%" of the vote tallied? That means that they had one precinct that voted, didn't roll the percent-o-meter over to 1%, and they called it.

3b. Reporting stunts: The fancy schmantzy rotundas...and oh dear Gawd, the ice map. Seriously? and with 3a above...do y'all remember calling the last two elections too early? I was hoping someone would have to go out there, chisel Indiana out of the ice, repour it, and restain it.

3c. The Heisenberg Principal of Voting: I would, if I could make one change to this process, stop ANY and ALL reporting of election results until all polls in this country are called. We can live for 6 hours without knowing. We could watch reruns of X-Files or something instead. I have a hypothesis: the constant 24 hour thing changes elections:
a. If you know your guy is "really really winning" (with 8% being reported as a final call), you may not take the time to stand out there and wait to vote. You figure "it's in the bag", so why not go get that pizza instead?
b. If your guy is really losing, same thing...what's the point?
c. If you live on the West Coast, and a or b above, why vote? (Apparently for silly props out in CA, but that's another post for another time.)
We know that elections can come down to the wire. There can be a time where Wyoming will decide an election. But by reporting 3 time zones before their polls close, you can alter the behavior of the people who are still waiting to vote. It can also force people to get out and vote, if they see their candidate losing, and want to help change it. But, I think the observation of the election changes the election. I admit, it's probably minor at the national election level, a lot being negated by the electoral college and winner take all, but I think that causes more distortion at the local level. But, minor has changed elections recently. I wish we would stop this practice. Leave it to a big surprise at the end....

I am proud of America though. We got out there, a hell of a lot more of us used our voices. Now we have to keep using our voices to guide the people we are sending to Washington...to keep them honest. And I hope we've inspired the people who didn't speak up on Tuesday to consider it next time.

My Baby Girl's Hurting

We've been fighting an ear infection for quite awhile now with H. We've fought ear infections since the day we got her (she came to us with a double one.).

Her speech is not progressing as fast as her other skills. She's been on 4 antibiotics in the last 2 months for this...

Her left ear will not drain at all. Nothing we do will get it to knock it back at all.

She's teething at least 3 teeth, and I'm guessing some 2 year molars are starting early too. She's got this wicked ear thing. Add on top of it that every time she goes to a doctor, she vomits. A lot. She gets wickedly upset.

This next week is going to be horrible...with all the pain she's in, and knowing that we are now counting down to getting ear tubes next Friday. I'm terrified of her going thru this. I know it's for the best, but I'm scared for her. I'm scared of how scared she's going to be. Plus, she has to have a pre-op physical too. Poor kid, every Wednesday for 3 weeks now, she's been in a drs office. This week? They had to get house-cleaning she was so sick, to clean the carpets.

If y'all can keep her in your thoughts next week, that'd be cool.

Stop The Ringing In My Ears!

Oh, wait, that was the phone for the last two weeks...

Hey, Jim, Steve, and annoying lady with annoying voice, only 2nd in annoying level to Sarah Palin...I know your answering machines need a retirement fund too, but, does that paying them to call me up constantly shit really get you any votes? Like I have nothing better to listen to than that prerecorded drivel...

Especially you, Jim. If you hadn't figured it out when you weren't put in after the Ryan sex scandal (oh, how my husband wished his wife was more at play in that one!) took him out of the primary, and they instead picked a crazy out of state black guy to run instead of you, who was runner up...well, that tells me that your own party knows you better than we ever want to. You can't hand out enough ice cream to buy a vote, it seems. How many elections have you tried now? Hummmm...at least 3, I know more, but don't want to use brain cells. Run for county coroner next time, then give up dude. Ironic that you are still running for your first position, but the person you wanted to go up against in the general that first time around is probably going to be President. Does this tell you about you mass appeal? I'm sure your a nice enough guy, but, just go do something that makes you happy, and makes better use of your millions.

I voted. Actually, H pushed the big red final button, cause that's a big deal to her. She and I have done our duty. P did his duty at 6 this morning.

No stop calling my phone and start doing your jobs. Jeeez.

I'm an Anti-Prayer Warrior

Really?! Seriously?! Y'all are praying down in FL on the capitol steps (hello, seperation of church and state...it benefits you too, you know - you haven't been forced to go to temple or another faith either, you know?!)...two questions for you, on this eve of Voting Day Eve...

1. Do y'all really think that a God, whatever form he takes, really gives a rats ass about the election being held in this country, one of many countries, one that probably has been given so much already and likes to piss so much away? Don't you think he'd rather be helping people who haven't had rain for a year? Or at least people who's country has been fu***ed up by an invading force?

2. Don't y'all think if he really didn't want abortion to happen, he'd make it so our simple human minds couldn't figure out how to do it?

3. How many of y'all have done something that REALLY SERIOUSLY makes a change that can help with this "problem"?? How many of you who think this is the worst thing in the world have decided to, and offered to a mother, terrified of the situtation she's in, to PARENT that child she's carrying? Not a large percentage, is my guess...at the crazy church down the street, whenever your peeps parade with nasty banners and pictures, I sure as hell don't see many parents with babies that don't look like them. Granted, people can do DA within same race, but there's a large Latino population town not two towns over, so you'd think you'd see one or two Hispanic babies if all these people adopted these babies that shouldn't be aborted. How many of you have worked to change the societal reasons that cause people to not be able to keep their children?! Lack of decent wage, lack of jobs, increased SEX EDUCATION, lack of general education, lack of outreach assistance to people who need it, outreach to kids born to parents in desperate situations - to break the cycle, etc etc etc...

That's what I thought.

Edited to add, reminded by Nyt's quote...I've long protested to Real-Life friends who are willing to listen to me: You will not overturn Roe v. Wade. Period. You can make it obsolete by changing other things to make abortion an option that isn't used very much. I don't see it as the end all be all sin, but I personally imagine the pain that the mother and family goes thru. Change the rules to make DA more airtight for the AP's...which will make more people claim that the birthparents aren't protected. But it is one big ass catch-22, but the state has to decide what they want the goal to be, and work towards it, a piece at a time...cause right now, the system sucks. But that doesn't dissuade me from pointing out most of these protesters have never thought of opening a home to a child to "save" it from abortion.

Make change in your home towns folks, before you bother a higher entity and make him do your hard work...you gotta make the little changes to change the big picture.

Please, if you agree with me. Vote. If you disagree with me. Vote. Don't vote on this one issue though. Make this country's representation a representation of what every one of us thinks.

The Cuteness

Here y'all go...hope everyone had a fun and safe Halloween...I for one, actually enjoyed it.