We Have A Daughter!

Born 03/07
Hunan Province

Needless to say...we're estatic! Pictures next week!

We're INNNNNNNN!!!

I'm speechless...(well, y'all know that is never true)!

We're going to be a mommy and a daddy. This is amazing. This is unreal. Gaaaahhhh...I wish I had something profound to say, but I don't. What words can express the notion that yesterday I was a PAP, and now, I'm a mommy?!?

No words qualify - none are up to that task.

And so y'all don't think I've gone all Type B on y'all...I didn't post last night cause I left my @$*&# computer in the car at my Dad's house when I went over to scam some pot roast and sweet potatos, and, well, I didn't realize it was going to get THAT cold, I was only there 2 hours, but ol' Bessie the laptop here was doing the best impersonation of a iceberg that I've ever seen, so I was afraid to crank her up! I promise to be in true Type A++ form as soon as we get THE CALL!

12/14 referral received out West

A woman on the West Coast has announced receiving a referral, and her LID is 12/14/05...

Oh my god...this is happening.

I've been crying, laughing, screaming, twitching etc for over the past hour...

Is this really real?

Of course, my SW is off today...I don't think they will hit the midwest and East Coast till tomorrow though!

Acccccckkkkk!

Am I a mommy?!??!

Nothing. Zilch. Zero.

OK, so we are headed into what will probably be the longest weekend of my life. Ever. Unless China pushes the time to referrals extra long...then next weekend will be.

Will I keep my sanity? Will I sleep? Or will I tip over Saturday from sheer exhaustion, and not wake up until Monday morning? Will I not eat from nerves, or eat myself into a sugar coma from nerves?

Why is this a secret? By all accounts, CCAA pulls out how many days they are willing to match , put those in a big pile, and then start matching kid - parent - kit - parent...so why can they not tell us what is coming? Why can't they make this process a bit less nerve-racking on the people who are going to parent their children? Hell if I know? I can't write that one off to Western vs. Eastern sensibilites...any one in any country can easily understand the stress someone feels while waiting for a child.

So...here I go again, another weekend. A couple thousand more heavy sighs.

Is It Really Going To Happen?

It looks like we're cutting it awfully close, which I kinda expected...but rumors are saying right now that we are in. I'm still letting the chickens roam uncounted here, but I'm starting to believe...

Oh Gawd...what if it doesn't happen? Oh Gawd, what if it does happen? Is there a file with a baby in it paperclipped to our file right now being signed???

Rules Of Engagement

OK, trying to distract myself from the Deafening Silence of Nothingness coming from a large country in Asia...

Did y'all see Rules of Engagement last night? Maybe they wrote this episode without the writers that are on strike...it was abysmal...the cliches! Oh my God the cliches...make it stop!!!!
1. The manly-man in the show, Jeff, of course wants a son.
2. Jeff gets all "it's not my swimmers" that caused us to not get pregnant.
3. It turns out to be Jeff's swimmers.
4. Jeff thinks when he's told to drink more water that Scotch would work, as it has water in it.
5. Jeff and wife Audrey are happy and fine, until one person asks why they haven't had kids yet...they tried for 6 months (oh, the committment), it didn't work, so they "sunk themselves into work." Or some other lame-ass excuse like that. And it takes one person asking once and they decide to change the course of their lives? They cave to the ideals of society that quickly?
6. And they go get all the tests done and completed and answers to infertility in like one 1 hour appointment. What about real life, docs not even listening till at least a year, sometimes more...and months and months of tests - heck, just waiting to get a dye test takes, what 3 weeks??
7. The young, soon to be married couple, gets in a spat about the future and when they have kids...he, raised by a hippy-ish mom who never married Dad, assumes that she will stay home with the kids. And she's not content with that idea.

Oh the cliches, the cliches...the evil, stereo-type inducing cliches.

Calgon, take me away!

My rumors are lost...

Where oh where have the rumors gone??? Not a single stinking peep, and it's the 26th of the month!!! I'm going just a shade bat-shit crazy here!

I was going to write a long post about my SW here today. But I don't have it in me. I'm weak, I'm a jiggling bowl of jello...I just want to melt into a puddle of tears while looking at the referral of Baby H....

I don't have any more righteous indignation in me right now...I'm so tired of answering the "when" question...